Soft, sweet, subtle touches.
Evoke my natural instincts
Awakening senses and feelings
As if I was yet another newborn.
Strange beliefs and emotions
Ruling my destiny and balance
The passion of secrecy, fulfilling.
Entrapt into the muchness
Fearing without any communication,
A runaway, yet no longer
Feelings escaping through a hidden message
Undecoded yet unforgotten, understood and conveyed.
Beating through the pulse, a single,
Yet voluntary notion of want
Never before experienced and enjoyed.
Living without you could kill me.
To me you'll always bo perfect,
Yet others can't even stop staring.
No one can prove to any extent,
You ponder, waiting
Searching slowly for answers.
Nothing's handed on silver platters
Inspire yourself, change.
Life waits in dark corners.
Lurking like a monster
Whether good or evil,
Entraptment awaits.
Suprises jump and confuse.
Darting, hiding, changing.
Failure to comply
Dying slowly, religion fading
All hope is trapped,
Never to return again.
Pondering never does much,
Action speaks louder than its own words.
Boredom slowly lingers around,
Momentarily but grows.
Strangely regretting existence
Obnoxious traits throughout.
Forming itself, modelling myself.
Creating confusion successfully,
Only think hard enough,
Slowly understanding, coming up easily.
Flashing, pushing feelings
Unexplainable yet existent.
Help, contained through control.
Unsettling gut feelings, instinct.
Quivering with malfunction,
General public labelled crazy,
Distractions of common life,
Dazzle and razzle the common knowledge and sense.
Neon democracies fight and bicker.
Just for unnecessary importance.
Basic morals disappearing like magic.
Yet all are blind t
Flooding rivers of regret,
Showing I should have loved you,
Bitter sweet love, beautiful.
Something has come between.
Pure hatred ruins the fun, the excitement.
My world has changed, shadows linger.
Creating suspicion between it and us.
Something changes, evolves.
Close encounters and experiences push,
Closer and closer we get, yet get drawn apart.
Yo-yo effect comes into play.
Stuck on you like glue, excitement settles.
Spinningly stops but re-continues.
Pure hatred and love combine creating the perfect coupling,
Two emotions that create my life.
Both good and evil, upsetting the balance will be shameful.
Like a typical movie
Crashing, screaming, chasing....
Running away, running through.
Thoughts of disguist, change, wrong...
Helpless and lifeless,
Unexplainable yet gone.
Drifting throught the sky.
Changing with the wind,
Spunn, popped and yelled down.
Sound, Sight and Speech,
Beginning of all sins.
I feel it, ripping through my back.
A cold, metal, blade.
The threatening anger over pain,
An unexplainable wrong act.
Nothing like before, worse.
No one could imagine anything.
Not these dark strange feelings
Unbearable and crude.
Like a pounding heart with anxiety
Another cold hard stab the painful twist.
Repeatative actions and details
Ending in angry tears.
Every drop of tear
New feelings and emotions, wasted.
Yet again changing, moving and entangling.
Uncontainable feelings.
Change is still calling,
Only my answer an be heard, I am in need.
No one needed but this, nothing.
Believing myself, on my own.
Yearning, callin
Love bites then dies,
But th flame still flickers.
It waves itself around then catches,
Like a pilot light on an oven.
If only it stayed alight forever
My true love never found, not yet.
Help, but lovehurts,
Never overcome nor conquered.
Hung about like a scarecrow,
Lifelss and dull until the wind,
Combines with the "cycle of love"
Around it goes, once again I'm going for the ride.
Unbeatable and fast,
Slowly slows to a stop,
I'm too familiar with this stage.
I'm take back, back into my seat,
Still going and loving it.
Real deal or false call? Am I being played?
Player, but no, not gain
Haltering to a stop, stationary.
Unl
Fulfill my heart with love,
Ignite my fire, release it.
Combustible feelings for you,
Reality bites har.
Reaching you, impossible.
Sadness renhes my heart,
Flattened by love, you and I,
Already taen and happy.
That'sthe way it is,
Unchangable fate.
Bought upon by ourselves.
Foolish and terrible actions.
Hope never dies but flits about,
Like a feather caught by the wind,
Carried until landed,
Landed and fallen for another.
Wrenching my heart through the hole,
Into a pit of darkness within.
Silence creates the perfect aliby,
But can never testify.
On behalf of your brain you function,
Tiny miniscuole objects, shocks help,
An empty pit of loneliness,
Deep, dark and decieving.
If only everything made sense,
To degrees beyond reason.
Differency misplaces tolerance,
Society changes rapidly.
Twisted views are tempting,
Not tempting enough,
Although many would disagree.
Cold within, hollow like a dead tree.
Just an empty shell.
life no more, just emorse.
Completely withdrawn, taken away.
Suffocated with sheer loneliness.
Surrounded by all yet the room's empty.
Fingertips massaging crevices.
Never been developed or likened before.
Unheard, unused.
Surroundings change frequently,
yet numbness remains remenant
Braind faes away, faces ablurr.
Irritating ticering aloft the sound barrier.
Freakiness or courage and strength wither.
Floating as per usual, away thoughts.
Unflattered by such a hanus act.
caught between reality and faiytales.
Life itself beckons within
Come forth lively world
Bring
Slow dark deep feelings.
Convulging within through pulses.
Each heartbeat thumps.
Continuely tingling throughout this corpse.
Soul aching and yearning for it,
Control is the key, to a healthy heartbeat.
Confronting feelings and emotions,
Containing cold, deep beathes.
Unexplainable fear through sight.
Simultaneously creating and stirring past pain.
Aching all over, turns and opens old wouns.
Scars emerge and overpower the fear.
Gaping holes, over raged by wrath.
Uncontainable isappointment and sorrow.
Depression floods back, returned from the past.
Spirals out of control, heart beat,
Taken care of, completely ridled and rid of
Sore inside, weeping wounds.
Let downs beyond the horizon
Spiralling to be understood.
Now different place - perfection
Life and past, covered and hidden.
Changed to be a fairytale person.
Understood by none,
Admired but ignored presence.
Hesitate to react, spooked
Nothing, no escape from it,
Never free from either turn made.
Resolutions turn to failed missions.
Never right - trouble caused.
Too scared and afraid to think
Though for but not of, depressing.
Unbelievable control and demand.
Destiny through the emptiness itself,
Many convulge with pain,
Wondering, awaiting.
Twisted matter of karma,
Many despair as fate grabs hold.
Guilt settles, then swallows.
My destiny, awaits, lingering.
Some have seen the terror,
Some have not yet.
Destiny, the best rollercoaster.
So fast, so slick.
But not as its cracked up to be.
Pain withers and dies,
Scars do not, forever the battle tattoos.
Mutilation of the body,
Pain and humiliation.
Worn with pride but scarred for life.
Many look in disguist, disappointment.
Believe in life,
Worldly power combines to create,
Masdestruction,
Pity and worship.
'Cause, Effect and You' by fizzpopbang, literature
Literature
'Cause, Effect and You'
Begging, beconing, becoming,
Bestowed upon yourself,
But only for excitement.
Spinning whirlwinds of matter,
Spiders cross-webbing, tangling.
Shadows lurk and linger throughout.
Cannot live without you,
Cause and effect take place,
Calling, wailling, wanting.
Thunder strikes and sounds,
The light blinds yet comforts.
Tinkling of water, tiny footsteps.
Pathetic acts of pain,
Causing everyone around you nothing but pain.
Why? Ask yourself clearly........
Answer from deep within you heart.
But wait, I fear you have no knowledge,
As per usual, you dont know of your cruel ways.
They're all hurtingwith anger;
Unjust doings against them,
No pity, no one cares....
Regret is not shown from our acts towards you.
You make it worse like a soppy soapie.
Absolutely disguisting and ile pretensions.
Someone needs to put an end to this shit,
Pathetic and stinkingly fake by far,
Sick and overly exhausted family has given up on you,
Abandon you as you try the sick act again
Pure hatred felt f
Current Residence: Australia Favourite genre of music: Black Metal MP3 player of choice: iRiver Skin of choice: panther skin Favourite cartoon character: Betty Boop Personal Quote: "Meow"
Favourite Movies
Spongebob Squarepants The Movie
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
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